Dear old dear me, I have fallen ill. Sandy throat and cough not fairly pleasant for my health. Lol. Okay I think I have those symptoms since I have received back my "AWESOME" results. I think you need to pray for me, I'm gonna die like very badly and horribly, yes you do.

Or perhaps, another reason is as you can read from the previous entry, the stuff about him. Okay, for safety purposes, I will not use his REAL name. I will be pronouncing him with a nickname. Let's just use the name epim*. Okay so let's just say there's some history between epim* and me. Like we started out way way way back. Yes when my hair's not as it is now. All long and scary like a witch, he was there, while it was still neat and short.

It was fun while it lasted, we talked a lot. Then he said he liked me. I don't know how that happened it all seems so blurry now to talk about it. So yeah. But the main thing is, epim* disappeared like halfway when we were talking. And he disappeared for like 2 or 3 years. Dearest ladies and gentlemen, 3 years or 2 years IS LONG. Please note, I repeat, it IS LONG. It may not be long to you, but in this story of mine, it is. I hope I have established that fact in my story.

Moving on, epim* came back like after the 2 or 3 years. It is a shock and surprise to me, because I thought that we have like half forgotten each other. And it never exactly came to me that he would remember me. But he did. Which was quite a delightful thought to the mind. And he said that he knew that somehow I would remember him too. Do you call that instinct or just the 6th sense? Okay. So far, it has been an extremely bumpy ride with him. I'm sure you'd want to know why. Lemme just educate you a bit on that. You see, like I emphasised, 2 or 3 years IS LONG. Whether you like it or not. So of course, we both would have "moved on". You know how time can "make the heart grow fonder" and in the end also it can "nurse a wound". So in my case, I guessed it was the "fonder of the heart", and then the "nursing of the wound", get the picture? I hope you did. (:

And to put it even more pleasantly, epim* actually has a girlfriend. Yes that's right. The "girlfriend" the one whom you share a love relationship with, that's where all the RA stuff comes in, yes that one. You got it, my dears. And the best part of the story is, he never told me. That's one. And the second one, he told me it was a dare and for a week only, these are the golden words: told me it was a dare, for a week only" Unfortunately, it must been more a than a week. And you know when you suspect about something and the suspect gets like suspiciously coincidental? Don't know what I'm mumbling about? Ok, try this situation: epim* told me that he was RPing (RP stands for RolePlay) with this girl and that it was a dare for only a week, after the week, the thing's off. Okay, I trusted him. But halfway like around coming to almost in the middle of the weekend, he suddenly comes up to me, tell me that he is moving house and that he WILL not be able to access his computer or the internet. I was a bit suspicious like why didn't he tell me this before? He insisted that I wasn't online much so cannot tell me, can't even leave me a bloody offline msg or something. Fine, whatever. So guess what? The week is OVER! His girlfriend, unfortunately, I have just spoken to has told me everything like they have been together for 2 months. Tell me people, is it coincidence? He never appeared anymore at all. Is it so coincidently that he suddenly has to move house like out of the blue? Now now we really have to ponder over that, don't we? (:

So the story continues to where it recently is. I have so-called "spam" his email box. And waiting rather paitently for a reply, also dreading a reply. If you're wondering what are some of the contents of the email, it's mainly just really messy and unorganised information being piled into messy unsettled paragraphs. There's a lot of stuff about me and some of the other things and um well yeah. Talking to his girlfriend was fun but also a bit disturbing and she problems too you know, because it so happened that some other girl also likes epim* and she is pestering the girlfriend to leave him alone. And the stuff she let us see about what she sent him is totally gross. But it's much lighter than RA stuff, not so um obscene, but still bad.

I guess this is how the story ends, do you feel enlightened? I feel better after talking it out. That's what a blog is for right like duhhh. So far I think lots of people know about it. My family (The one mentioned in my blog), 4 people from church yes. And um 2 of my school friends? Yup. So far they all know about it. And thanks to all whom have given me great advice and strength! I just want you all to know that, whatever happens, I will turn to God for help for he is the only one whom can help me too. And don't worry please, I won't do anything foolish. I'm still mentally sane even though I may act retarded and mentally ill, c'mon you guys know me deep inside, don't deny, you know you do. (: