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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
Okay, sorry to my dearest audience/people/darlings/honeys/BASICALLY PEOPLE WHO READS THIS BLOG/PAGE/WEBSITE WHATEVER.
Yes, yes, I have been receiving much criticism these few days.
And they are mounting to an enormous height!
Okay here are some apologies that should go from my mouth to every one's ears:
NUMBER ONE - Sorry for the terrible English. I WILL try to use proper English, is that okay?
NUMBER TWO - COLOUR combination 1.the dressing was and is for fun. I wanted to try out something new. I know the colour combination sucks. I think I need help. I mean I thought it was quite okay... I don't have any other thing to go with it and it's not like I'm gonna wear them every time right? Sigh. 2. The blog's colour combination, sorry la. Have to adapt and change each time I change skin, trying to find colours that both white and black background can see haha. My apologies people.
NUMBER THREE - I cannot stand that guilt that my heart holds. I feel so guilty and also so bad. Sometimes, I feel like I don't know what I am doing, or perhaps I was engrossed by something else so please forgive this dear blur young lady. Yup, yup. Sorry, a bit of an inside thingy, but if that person is reading this, please forgive me. (:

Okay, yes, I feel slightly better now. Erm, hope a particular someone is happy because she told me to blog about something different, so I really am gonna do that! Er well, so you all have heard that I have been feeling down. Hm, I guess it's just me. Or maybe it has to do with what's been happening.

I hate reality and life. All this stuff about empathy and everything, how can you get the other person to understand how you are feeling or what you are experiencing? And how can you face up to fear? I mean yes, I am actually very outgoing, but I have my moments when I am shy too and also quiet, why can't people just understand that part of me? You cannot take me as an outgoing person 24/7 right? Even I wish i am like that too... I wish I was brave, daring and possess courage. AND, would it kill you to not discourage me at all? Hello? Are you human? Do you treat me as a human being as well? Do you treat me like how you would treat yourself? Do you even have humanity? Or are you just some wooden thick block like you say people usually are? Lol. This is getting rather personal, but such random thoughts are running through my head. Sometimes. It's like, I heard this saying: When a girl's quiet, a million things are running through her head. It's true. And I feel like sometimes I am going insane.

That's why I like music, because sometimes, all these feelings, they are expressed in such beautiful pieces of songs. And they just courage you, cheer you up, put you in a better mood (:, haha, see the side bar, OMG, like how many songs!!! :D!

Now, now, UPDATES! DUCKIE IS GONNA GET A JOOOOOOOOB! WHEEEEE! YEAH YEAH! Working again! I dont' know why but I like to work! Probably because of the KA CHING! KA CHING! XD! I was thinking just receving two salaries of it, I CAN BUY THE CAP THAT I WANT! :D! Yes I want a cap. Daddy knows. Mummy knows. Vic knows and um my classmate too hahaha. (: AND YES I cannot WAIT! My church is moving to my school auditorium -.- so exciting isn't it? NOT. But yeah, it'll be exciting to get closer to school..... NOT! Sigh. Yeah. Can see the sarcasm? I put it there like rather, NOT obviously. :P. Now, that was OBVIOUS. Haha.