Omg hey. I missed you *takes baby wipe and wipes blog and kisses and hugs it*
Life sucks.
Really. Not Primary school thing anymore.
I hate myself I really hate myself.
I feel so crushed when daddy's crushed.
Daddy did you know you're my pillar of support!
You cant collapse! I am depending on you!

This week just sucked. I didnt feel like studying and everyone's talking about midyears!

ANALYSIS:

M I D Y E A R S

DEFINITION:

Middle of the year, major exams

Sorry, too much Literature. Analysis of text and definition with significance.

AND I HATE MYSELF! I LIKE F***ING SLEEPING!
I suppose to freaking do homework I end up SLEEPING!
I hate myself! I want to kick myself!
What's wrong with me?!
Like Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday I did that!
HOW TO STUDY LIKE THAT!
I cant even sit down and do hw!
HOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!
Music doesnt help me!
And I cant sms daddy while doing hw right!

ARGH!
My body really sucks. It wont stay awake!
And worst, it's like I sleep at 9pm RIGHT AFTER I BATHE!
Then i wake up at 1.30am wondering what is going on!
I cant afford to do that this year!
And and I want to really start studying!
I want to pass MIDYEARS!
IT'S THE ONLY FREAKING THING I HAVE FOR PREPARATION BEFORE O LEVELS!
AND AND I WANT TO GET 6 POINTS FOR O LEVELS OR SOMETHING!
HELL AM I GOING POLY! I look at the Polys, they're not much to my liking.
Sorry. Last resort then I go but it's not my choice at all.
AND 6 POINTS MEANS ALL A1s!
And frankly speaking I'e got F9s and E8s and D7s in my report book!
I dont have a freaking single A1 or A2 or B3!
The highest grade I got it s B4! LIKE @#q$!$!@#@!$%%&*!!!!!!!
I'm just so angry and frustrated!
I CAN DO IT!
WHY ARENT I DOING IT!
WHY ARENT I GETTING THE GRADE I CAN ACHIEVE!
EVEN IF I CANT GET FREAKING ACES!
I CAN GET FREAKING Bs & Cs!

TSK. I'm just seriously angry!
And I hate my class and my school!
Classmates suck only think they're so hot and so cool.
And they're er just average.
When they're so childish to the CORE.
But some of them are nice, still acceptable.
MAJORITY SUCKS.
NO RESPECT.
NO CONSIDERATION.

I know I'm not any better at least I know I'm not like THEM.
I know about having civil tongue & I dont have an ATTITUDE problem.
I cant stand this stupid world anymore!

Horrible people! GROW UP! AND WHEN I SAY GROW UP I MEAN IT. MATURE DAMMIT! YOU'RE ALREADY 15!

That's it, I've vent my frustration.

You make me angry dont blame me.

OKAY. And tmr's CIP and rehearsals.
CIP - hopefully I dont smell like Pulau Ubin & the kids dont piss me off.
Me & kids dont go together.
Rehearsals - should be fine. I just hope I wont crack. And I'll stay awake.
It might cheer me up unless hopefully not in a bad mood.

Sigh. I'm not gonna post til I get to study again. And you know MidYears.
And since I'm all such a b*tch about MidYears perhaps I wont even post til the whole damn thing's over.

Tsk just angry really. I want to murder somebody.
And no daddy, it's not you.
It's not any of you, unless you know you piss me off.

I gotta tell myself I hate sleeping.
I HATE SLEEPING.

I dont know if it's me or if it's my skin.
But mosquitoes love me and they make me grow red spots EVERYWHERE.
My arms, my legs and my neck. Even now, my face has it too.

Life is so miserable. Where are you? I need you to light a smile on my face.
Please dont make it any worst than the way it is.
You're my only hope now and I will be dependant on you :)

Duckie. With love. Heehee. :D!