"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are."

Hello. I just want to bitch about today, Seriously.

Hang on, scratch that, I want to bitch about my life.

So here comes the roller coaster ride....
My dad got pissed for one, banned me from everything.
Church, computer, whatever you name it. That's the first bitching.

Second bitching is my sister, yeahyea so I am suppose to be grateful to her for giving me tuition at what? Inappropriate weird times? HEH. Then she so annoying just go and bloody sleep lah! Why you must care about me? I am online so what! I am can bloody hell be online, why you care what time I sleep!

Third bitching. It's gonna be anonymous. But, I think Daddy knows. It's about What's going on? Do you hate me? Why are you doing this to me? I want to give up. Let me go. Let me give up. I am sorry for everything I've done. Please, just please let me off.

See? Isn't my life so interesting? So yeah, I've pretty much covered the main parts.
Today was actually still a rather nice day. Today is Maths Day. Go to school to practically do MATH. Did Algebra, then Mensuration and at last, Trigo hehe!

Go back home still do Math. My tuition homework. Woah questions are damn hard lah. I was like o.o and I was attached to one of the questions. I was happy today because I felt really inspired to do well for O levels and everything and I was especially happy as my dad allowed me to go for rehearsals today! :D! YAY! And I was thanking God so so so much for it. Until, the nightmare came.

Ok here goes my exaggeration. HEY I just want to build some tension up. So, yeah, it was not that horrid. But it was still a bit bad. I sang rather weirdly and I was sort of bored of the songs. Esp God Be In My Head. Sorry God. But singing it all over and over again is just... I don't know. I can't. And it seems like the more I sang it, the worst I got.

It was messy too as it felt like not everyone came. And then we split into sections and it was messy kinda. The first notes all wrong. And I got my musical notes wrong too. The F A C E & Every Good Boy Does Fine. E G B D F. Can't remember the other one but it was All Cows Eat Grass and something haha.

Anyway, back to the point. God showed me something. I really wanted to go for rehearsals so much, today, I went for it, I felt like I didn't enjoy it and that I regretted going for it. See? God shows me things. he showed me that things that I really want... I have to think about it again. Do I really really really want them?

If I have nothing else to look forward to in my life, I am not sure if I'm gonna be here any longer. No lah. I'm not gonna commit suicide lah. Think too much. I still have you guys around so I will think twice about committing suicide.

OH YEAH. I've been thinking about changing my blogskin but ahhh I'm not sure. A BIT lazy and ah :P I don't know, I love you all okay? Needs to go before someone starts bitching up again.... -.- ciao?

SARANGHAE