My house is like a kiosk stand.
FOC people! Come get it!
First come, first serve.
Take advantage all you want.
It's free anyway.
Manipulate the items please!
Make full use of them whatever you want!

Don't care who they belong to!
Those people have no feelings!
They don't care anyway!
Do it your own way!
You're the boss man!
You are in control.
It's all about you...
You...
And you...
And you...

Why should you care about other people anyway?
They're not important.
You are.
And only you.

You shouldn't give a damn about anyone else but you.
After all, I'm more important.
I'm the oldest.
She's younger than me.
I can bully her anyway I want.
Because I am older.
Older don't necessarily must give way to the younger.
It's younger give way to older.
I am older anyway, so why should I even care?

They also do that to me what.
I do then okay lor. Shrugs. Whatever.
I don't care.
Not one bit......

Today was a really busy day. Woke up to be reading New Moon, then my dad says gotta go for seminars. He dropped by to the clinic as well, blood test confirmed he had diabetes. Well, as long as you got High Blood Pressure, no surprise. They're all pretty much interlinked anyway. Ngee Ann's seminar was actually very good, must say that it is better than SP's. Frankly speaking it is because Ngee Ann has like ummm.... refreshment intervals in a way? SP doesn't. It's all just talking. Plus I jsut also eaten or something. But I think food wise, SP win :P. Not bad, make up for it. But Ngee Ann's was fine.

I can't help it. Today is really bad. I'm not exactly a selfish person but I've never exactly really shared my things with people. And the thing is, no one in my family really shares thing with each other. I just really don't like it. Like suddenly, they're all taking away my possessions when actually, they're all pretty much gone anyway. It's like they've got their own but what the heck, mine's better, more convenient, then just take!

Then for me, I feel like I am not respected. It's like what the hell. Then when I want to use it also cannot because you're using it. And you're so gross. The clothes I wear halfway, you just take and wear! Then what, oh so you want to wear them is it? Like so gross, I wear you wear then I was planning to wear it again on another occasion.... Then if you're not gonna wear it then don't complain. Walao. What kind of attitude is that? teh clothes is yours or mine huh? The book I was reading halfway, you just come and take and read just because I go and bathe. Then when I come back out, it's gone. And when I asked you for it, oh whatever I'm reading it, I'm older anyway, why? You're reading it is it? But you're online! You can't do 2 things at once and blah blah blah. I hate it. Liek suddenly just treat me like that and all you people are like freeloaders! THANKS. Steal everything lah. I can't complain. I can't say anything because it'd still be like my fault like that. Like oh, then why you go away and all those stupid things. I just don't get it. Are other people's families' like that too? Don't care? Only me me me me me.

It's ironic isn't it? I'm talking only about myself too. But I really just can't stnad it. Imagine suffering that every weekend. No choice. What they find, oh new discovery! Hallelujah! Then just like that lor. It's just downright weird. I don't usually take their things too. And why why why must they take it when I want to use it? Tehy also feel irritated what! Then!?!? So it just basically means I have no right, no nothing, I have no feelings, I'm just nothing.

I always see myself on the losing end. Will I ever be on the opposite end?
I hate everyone, I hate myself the most....

So miserable....

Dear God, teach me how to be loving towards them.
Thought they are blind to my feelings like how everyone is.
Teach me how to be more like you.
Teach me how to be tolerant.
Thank you God so much for everything.
In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen.

Last Minutes:
Nick Yue go China le. Asked him to get something. Wonder what he is getting. But mostly importantly, hope God keeps he and his family safe as well as them getting to enjoy themselves! (:
Chan go camping. Hopes he enjoys himself. (:
Who else is gone...
Oh I know,
Me.