I'm going.


- Ballistic.


Beyond Belief.


Yup, That's true, I'm afraid.

It's Saturday.
Pulau Ubin today.
& if I'm not wrong, I still carry the essence in the air.

Lily frenchplated my hair.
Very nice.
I want to keep it there like forever.
But cannot, I gotta learn how to tie my own!

Today got Fusion, I'm feeling quite miserable that I'm not going.
But then... How to say leh?
I got so many obstacles in the way!

One is about Daddy, okay, that part is PRIVATE & CONFIDENTAL!
If you want to know, must come and approach me personally.

Two is today no mood, got so many things on. I actually do have a lot on.

Three, this year O levels, my sacrifice level is increasing.

FOUR & FIVE:
4: Nobody going leh. Maybe got la. But still, you know....
5: If they're not going, I have no sense of direction so, yeah.

Today I'm feeling really very sian.
like no life, no mood for anything at all.
I dont even feel like studying.
I did matrices today and I was like :O
New topic!

And then I died the rest of the day.
I couldn't look at my SS book anymore.
Because the more I did, the more I yawned.
And and and I was just really lethargic.
I did what was against my will today, but
THERE WAS NO CONTROL!

I was like a couch potato.
Switch on TV, watch TV, ate things.
I was planning not to eat and exercise, in the end?!
-.-
Then I just... I just feel really lifeless.
I dont know how Daddy does it.
Where does he get this will from?
Cant he give me some?

And tmr.... I hope & pray that
Tomorrow's a better day.
Yeah.

OMG! OMG! PEOPLE!

4 MORE DAYS!

4! FOUR!

SI KE TIAN!

To the BIG day!

Anyway, today's wednesday, dead day.
We had 3 subjects then Chapel.
Slack day la.

And I want to lodge a complain!
WHY WHY WHY WHY!
Is it that Thursday and Saturdays are always the most picked days!

WHY!?!

Can't a kind soul tell me why?

CCAs on Thursday.
Housemeeting.
Remedials, extra lessons -.-

Then Saturday,
Tuition.
CIP! (wtf)

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
My parents only allow me to use com during weekends!

LOOK AT MY WEEKENDS!
I got Church and I got tuition and got stuff also.
Weekends are suppose to be liberated days!
Instead my weekends are far busier than my school days!

Must be because they are reserved for studying....
-.-
Okok I do study.
But I'm kinda lazy, heck, I'm still gonna go study.

Sigh.
Btw, CHINESE TEST PWNS! NOT!

OH YA! I found a JAPANESE FOR BEGINNERS on my sis's table!

Lemme teach you some japanese.

Konnichiwa means Hello or Good afternoon.

Arigato means thank you
More polite way is arigato gozaimasu.
Also, domo arigato gozaimasu means thank you very much!

Then to say You're welcome is ... it's damn hard.
Something like...
Do itashimashite!

YEAH. And there's the most famous one which says

SAYONARA~!! <3!!!

If you dont know what it means, you will, soon. (:

Sigh. Hello.
Today I went out with daddy.
Just came back.

Shit. Today's a bad day.
I totally forgot all my algebra manipulation stuff!

Was doing it today & I felt rather humiliated because I didn't know how to do the sums.... >.<

But it was quite okay I got the hang of it after a while le.
Not so bad.

And then Chem with daddy.
I think today was like the first time daddy officially taught me.
Because like the rest of the times, what were we doing?
You look at my chem papers, I look at yours.
"Oh look, this test paper our teacher let us do is actually RGS chemistry paper!"
"Waaah your teacher good lor!"
etc. etc. etc.

Sigh, was doing Mole concept.
I hate Mole concept, it's like maths.
And I dont like Maths.
But I find it okay tho, Maths is okay but sometimes very annoying.

It's like for the concept right.
I will understand and get it today then you come and ask me again next time, I dont think I will recall it.
Sigh. That's why I must practise my maths, I lack this practise thing.
Must squeeze it in somewhere.

Mole concept was incredibly much more clearer to me!
YAY! THANKS DADDY! (:
Actually there's a lot of things to thank Daddy for
but I really really want to thank GOD for daddy!

For if there ain nobody like him to help me.....

Will I be able to pull through?

Oh ya, I forgot to mention the motivational talk ytd!
I learnt that in this world, you cant survive by yourself,
you still need someone to hold your hand through your life.
There's no way you can walk in it all alone.
That's why GOD made Adam and Eve,
He didnt just made Adam or He didnt just make Eve, He made both of them.
And both of them went through thick and thin together,
Not only one of them enjoyed the Garden nor ate the forbidden fruit,
both of them did. & Both suffered the consequences together.
Yup!
(:

So people out there, if you're reading this blog,
know that you are never alone okay?
You have people all around you!
Parents, relatives, friends, classmates, schoolmates, accquaintances!
And probably even me!
Haha! (:
You dont have to go through it all alone.
You can go through it with a friend or a companion!
And I can introduce you to one really really faithful friend!
GOD! (:
He is the one who can truly understand everything.
Better than us all who live in this fallen world.
(:

Suddenly feeling holy lol.
Okay chops. I gotta do stuff.
& since, today is Saturday, I have A LOT OF STUFF to do.

Bio/Chem on Monday, wish-me-luck.
Gonna study.
au revoir! (:

DUCKIE LOVES YA! (:

HAHAHAHA!
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

TODAY ....
TODAY .......
TODAY TO TO TO TO-DAY!

TODAY! I was....
Very high. Haha.

No la, today was quite okay.
No wait, let's talk about ytd first.

Ytd was Valentine's Day. And well, SO MUCH FOR VALENTINE'S DAY!
THE TEACHERS SHOWED US MUCH LOVE BY PUTTING COMMON TESTS ON VALENTINE'S DAY!
THANK YOU!

-.-'''
Well, the verdict is that I'm done for for my SS.

Question was something about the most devastating impact of the Iraq-Kuwait conflict.
The starting para was like wad 4 lines.
First factor also like 4 lines!
Second factor was like 5 lines!
Third factor was like 5 or 6 lines or 4!
Conclusion was like.... Very crappy and very long.
I was feeling shit shit shit, cuz everyone wrote SO LONG!

Lit was fine, I loved it 3 pages or around there! :)

Then today. Was Geo and Maths.
Geo was like.... Some diagram thingy with pictures and we were suppose to refer.
I was like ZOMG at the questions.
1st qn 4 marks I wrote the longest.
2nd qn was like 7 marks?
then third was like 6 marks?
then the last was like 8 marks!!!!
Geo die alrdy. My 4 mark qn was the longest then the rest...
Like my SS paragraphs.... -.-

Maths was okay, but I think I screwed up on the algebra parts.
The SD and all was fine but I think I screwed up on the mean and median thingies.
The answers look suspiciously wrong.
And when I saw the SD question I was secretly laughing to myself.
Hahaha.

OH YAH! Then today during SS while we were listening to the Trans-national stuff,
the Total Defence sound sounded. And there was this announcement haha.
After the end of the announcement, there was cheering & we were like WTF? For what?
So funny.

Okay, gotta go.
>.<

That's right, the duck is gonna get FATTER!

Omg 2 nights in a row!
CNY is just OMG OMG OMG.

I ate so much during the past 2 days la.

Bak kwa, STEAMBOAT!
Then today, the nicest feeling ♥
Went to one of my cellgroup's house and had dinner there!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
But wait, that was after a day of cycling!
Omg haha. I can cycle!
& um yea I wanna thank one of my cg member & her bf (:
You 2 lovebirds are THE BEST!!! (:

ANYWAY! ABOUT THE DINNER!!!!! (:
OMG HER MUM IS THE BEST LAAAA....
Cook the food & remind me of Europe!!! :D!
THE FOOD WAS PARADISE!
I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!!! :D:D:D:D!!!

Haha & we stayed around & talked about everything under the sky.
It was getting pretty much late, however, I didn't really cared or bothered.
I continued to stay & talk. It also seemed that my cellgroup members were really preoccupied people.
They all had to hurry to some place else, leaving only a few of us to celebrate the rest of the time.

:D I really thank God for today.
I think been able to spend time with people like my cellgroup is great.
It's like a fantastic bonding time!

Well well well, tmr is a brand new day ahead of me! (:
I hope I can embrace tmr well & just keep cool & be myself! (:

OH CRAP! I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING ARGHHHHH!!!!
Lol. Sorry random :D.
Okok, I think my hair is quite dry, I can go & sleep now, YAY!

♥♥♥
DUCKIE!
:D!

Hello there.
If you see that this entry is written in like 2:31AM.
Your eyes arent kidding and the time ain wrong.

I AM AWAKE!
WHY?

-.-'''

Because there were nocturnal people around that woke me up?
Lol. Okay, anyway, I felt like a pig today.
I had too much to eat. Damn crazy la.
I knew it was overloading.
I still pushed it through.

Aiya, tomorrow I have another big day ahead of me.
Going to one of cellgrp's house & have our own chinese new year xD
And cycling?
Hahaha I hope I still remember how to cycle lol!
So fun!!!
:)

Omg.

Haha. I watched Kung Fu Hustle today also.
The first time a gory show was so comical.
Serious! :)
It's a good thing la, hahaha.
But if the whole time was Stephen Chow very boring leh.
Then daddy also lost $14.
Okay the daddy losing $14 is random.
Some blackjack game made him lost money.
And sorry to dadddy, Duckie was PIG today! :)

Sigh and now,
I feel so alone even tho Dwight is awake & has stopped talking to me.

Okay, it's coming to 4 maybe I'll go sleep haha.

Hellloooooooooooooooo!
It's the QUACKING machine again.
Yes that's right,
that's what a DUCK is.

But fortunately for me, I'm just Duckie.
Not a Duck. :D.

IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR! SO, HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)!

I hope I can get an increase of $$$ this year :D:D:D

Later going with Daddy, Mummy & company. Hahaha.
Now is like so sian.

Let me tell you something really truthful & random.
It's a really sad fact.
Singaporean kids are quite sad.
It's like they don't really know how to have fun like the other kids in the globe. If you'd try to compare us all you'll realise that we are like stiff and inactive. Maybe some of us are, but most of us are not. We're a little bit too modern.

AHHHHHH I SEE THE WORD "MODERN" I GET THE NERVES.

Oooops! Daddy called! Gotta run!!! LOVES LOVES LOVES!!!

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EVERYONE!
MISSED ME?

I KNOW YOU DID LA. (:

I -
I missed you peeps too...

>.<

Anyway, feeling happy, high & relieved! :D!

AND AND AND AND

DUCKIE LOVES LOVES LOVES LOVES

ICED COFFEE WITH FRENCH VANILLA!

DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN SUPER NICE!

IT'S A SUPER MUST TRY!

I try to take a picture of it for you guys to see, okay?
Then you can go and get one for yourself! (:

Anyway, today was pretty much like hell. Cuz yesterday no sch.
Then sch so bitch, push all the test to FRIDAY!
Which is TODAY!
So yeah then all the homework was hanging around as well.
And I was just full of fatigue. I think I overslept [OOOPS! (:]

Well, but I'm elated! The Bio test was 10% & super easy! All MCQs!
But I regretted, last question keep changing answer & change to the wrong one! :(
Aiya, but that's life (:

Then today, also got Narrative test, WAAAAAAH I TELL YOU ARH.
THE NARRATIVE TEST ARH!
I SUPER LUCKY YOU KNOW!
I THANK GOD.
I REALLY REALLY WANT TO THANK GOD & PRAISE HIM!
Because initially, I didn't exactly know what to write la.
Then lucky for me, very lucky for me.
I just thought of something and wrote it down.

JUST NICE, JUST IN THE NICK OF TIME,
When my English teacher say "Stop Writing!"
I JUST FINISHED!
I SWEAR!
I REALLY JUST FINISHED THE WHOLE PAPER!
OMG!
& My friend said she haven't even reach the climax of her story haha.
Oh wells.

THANK GOD! (:

& CHIINNNEESSEE TEST.
It was quite okay, except during LIVE lesson,
I was studying chinese & at the same time I was listening to the teacher. (:
At least I still could do it la.
Except there's this very very very long guan you yu that I cannot remember!
So diappointed!
I only recalled the first part then I forgot the second part haha.
The one after the comma, aiya, but I remembered all the rest! (:
Oh yea, during the chinese test arhh it was very exciting you know!
It was raining and pouring.
Duckie sits beside the window, and she saw lightning, my partner saw it too.
Then the thunder slapped very loudly & scarily & all.
Some girls from everywhere screamed.
Everyone including the teacher got a shock.
Although the test was still going on, we all murmured to each other:
"Omg I got a shock!" or "The thunder scared me!" something like that la.
HAHA!
& the firedrill bell got excited too!
It ringed a couple of times throughout our test.
It ringed then stopped ringing ring then stopped ringing.
It was funny because when it ringed and stopped quite immediately,
people from the above levels went HAHA really loudly then later they stop when the bell stop ringing and went the bell came back again, they went HAHA again so LOUD la.
Then some people during the test were laughing too.
The teacher smiled I think if I am not wrong (:
I like my Chinese teacher (:

& today last part also very rushed!
School end late cuz of the chinese test then I had to quickly rush to hand up my Conclusion, today was the DEADLINE! Then had to hurry home!

& I wrote this at the bus stop while waiting for the bus & I MISSED IT TWICE!
Here it goes, One of Duckie's emo pieces I think :P :

IT'S CALLED:

I AM SORRY by Duckie

I am sorry, I really really am. For I do not know what's gotten into me.
Lately, it looks like hurrying and rushing is a trend & doing things at the last minute is just style.

I hope you'll find in your heart to forgive me, I really really do.
Bitten by guilt, isn't cool.

If you forgive me, thank you!
If you do not, please do!

I did not see your face so I don't know who you are.
But if we know each other, please have a heart <3

THAT'S IT. <3