HI!

Uh... Yeah my pract was okay I guess.
MOLE CONCEPT DIDNT COME OUT AT ALL!
Instead some inorganic acid thing came out and we were suppose to find out
what some chemicals P,Q,R were. Either Salt, alkaine or the inorganic acid.
I love doing the practicals la. Test for gases.
Used everything from burning splint to the litmus papers.
It was like the splint just extinguished then the litmus papers were weird.
Only the tip change colour... What does that mean?
I recorded the change anyway.
I like the dissolving of the magnesium ribbon best.
There was one that was fizzling then totally disappeared.
The others had funny bubbles.
Then there was one where the thingy like decomposed in the liquid.
Yucks! And I didn't burn anything today except the wooden splinter haha.

Bio was do drawing. I think I screwed up on labelling the parts and the magnification.
Then there was this question where they gave you the apparatus then you have to plan how to perform the experiment. That one was quite challenging, got me thinking for awhile.
Other than that, I had time to look around.
Oh yeah, the ammonia gas smell was SUPER strong. I smelled it then I was like
"Oh shit."
Cause my nose was like :O so close to the test-tube, I forgot leh!
And it was quite cool when you add the thingy it felt warm, it also felt cold. :)
Exothermic and Endothermic. Nice.
All the things all produce white ppt. No fun.

Okay, now gonna study for the rest of my subjects. I feel so screwed.
Maths and SS leh!!! Both subjects I am so not good at.
Maths is actually fine. I can do the questions wann.
But when I attempt, it's somehow wrong.... Method is correct tho.
Sigh. *puts hands in pocket*

SS..... I dont know what crap I am gonna write this time.
Honestly, it depends on question and what they ask.
Hopefully, I know how to do. Anyway, gonna study now (:

Duckie@bio... wooooooh

Okay, random name. Waiting for 4.30pm to come then can take Practical Exam.
I don't feel like taking it today! I had English Paper1 then Chinese Paper1 then now Practical Exam!
Why they squeeze so much things into one day!!!@!!!!!##@$#%&&&%&*()*(()_)&^$%#$!!!!

I think I did okay for both except I think I did better for my English. The difference isn't very big.
For the Speech part, I soooo crapped it up but yeah, quite okay la haha.
Then the incident part, not very good. I think I plunged into the climax too fast, never build up.

Chinese..... -.- The letter I wrote informal. It was a bit weird. But rather factual because it was a letter to your father overseas then I wrote about one part where my dad cut his finger and it wouldn't stop bleeding. I wrote out that part it was true and I said I felt touched. I not only felt touched but I also felt like I should have accompanied him to the hospital because the cut was so deep it wouldn't stop bleeding. And yeah.
Poor Papa. He isn't daddy but my real biological father. Papa, I'm gonna give you a big hug! (:

The other one was something like kinship is more important than friends, do you agree?
That part the starting was crazily crapped up only the last part then all the real good points came in.
The starting was rubbish. Uh oh.
Yeah, so now, waiting for Practical Exam to start, start at 4.30pm and ends at 6pm, isn't that just wonderful?

Stupid school, I don't understand why they squeeze. My brain juice has lost some of its power! :P!

Practical gonna start soon le. Want to say, daddy, missed your constant interruption in my life haha.
More like I interrupted your life oh well. Bye! (:

All the best for my practical I guess. The last time I remember I burned a hole at the top of my paper! :O! Haha!

My phone went ...



CRUSH GEAR




TURBO!


OMG BLOG PEOPLE! EVERYONE! I MISSED YOOOOOU!
OKAY, GOTTA KEEP THIS TO THE POINT.
MY PHONE WENT CRUSH GEAR TURBO. SO YEAH.
NO SMS. NO CALLING. CUZ YOU'LL BE WASTING YEH $$$$!
And ah, my pap ain wanna get me another substitute one
cuz he believes "It's God's Will, don't want you to keep smsing."
-.- FINE! So I keep my SIM-card around in my wallet! :(

ANYWAY! I believe Mid -years are around the corner!
So STUDY HARD. Don't say not O Level then don't care!
It's part of your preparation for O LEVELS! So, STUDY!

My timetable's something like this:
Monday-this coming monday- 28 april - science practs & el/cl paper 1
Friday- SS paper, MATHS
Monday - Friday - ALL GOT PAPERS!
Monday - should be Pure Lit
Tuesday should be Geo and cl paper2
Wednesday should be el paper2, bio/chem
Thursday is Maths paper2 and chem paper3
Friday is F&N
Monday is Bio/Chem paper1
SHOULD BE.
SHIT! MATHS ON FRIDAY!

OKAY STRESSED AND DEAD! SO REMEMBER WANT TO TALK TO ME CALL MY HOUSE PHONE!

Or leave messages in my TAGBOARD! :D!

Love you all and will miss you!
ALL THE BEST FOR MIDYEARS!

YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU!!!! (:

:) birthdays to DADDY & VICTORIA!
Daddy: Your present has to wait until like Midyears over or something :( sorry!
Vic: SUNDAY IS THE DAY! Wheeeeeeeeeee! (:

HEY BLOG.


HEY ALL.

This is Duckie. Okay, sorry daddy, this is a bit late.

But i havent been eating well for the past few days.

I dont why, but my appetite changed totally.
No, it's not normal.
I have stopped eating normal meals.
I skip them more often now.

However, today, dinner I had such a feast compared to what I've been having.
I had laksa, tangyuan and satay, not much to you?
IT'S A LOT TO ME! And I had lunch today! And breakfast!

And on Saturday, I didnt eat at all. Just only had breakfast, and that's it.
Friday was like budget meal. And I learnt the true value of money.
Imagine having $1.20 for that day. I spent 30cents on soya bean milk, 30 cents on mamee.
The left over, I forgot what I used it for already.

Today, everyone's like so depressed. And I got affected.
Daddy I want you to know that being or having precautions is fine. (:
It's normal for us human beings.

I cant think of anything much to say right now except:

1. I haven't finish my F&N coursework.

2. Tomorrow I don't want to go to school.

3. Please let Wednesday come slowly. And then Thursday and all speed up, thank you! (:

4. When one's feeling down,
Far beyond the ground,
one needs to know that one is never alone.

For one has friends where ever they may go.
Friends who will always be there and stick with you to the very end.
All you need to do is open your heart to them.
Talk to them and confide in them.

And friends, your job is to make them feel secure, safe and good in your hands.
Because, that's a job of a friend!
(:

Okay, that's all I've go to say.
I am not a mean person if you'd bother to know me very well.

Quotes: "I'm not so bad, once you get to know me." From Matrix show. Haha.

I can be so nice, you'd think I'm insane.

But wait, hey check, I AM insane.

LOVE, DUCKIE. Yeah sleepy. Sleepy duck doesnt quack. (;

Sigh today was like yesterday, so let's start from yesterday.

Yesterday was FRIDAY. 11th APRIL. I was so excited at the beginning of the day!
AND FOR THE FIRST TIME. LILY CAME LATER THAN ME! And I came super early to school.
As usual, sms dadddy. Was really happy at first.
But as the day continues with... all the 2 PERIODS.
2 PERIODS of Geo, WRITE AND WRITE AND WRITE NON-STOP.
2 PERIODS of Chinese. Not too bad, I love my chinese teacher! :D! She showed us much love by in returning giving us LOADSA chinese homework! . . .
RECESS > My papa gave me $5 for recess but I spent only $3! What he owe me, what a goooood little girl I am! :D:D:D:D!
2 PERIODS of LIT! (Lily didnt believe me when I told her it was lit! HAHAHAHAHA!)
My lit teacher fascinated us with MSND and stuff about irony like when somebody says something to someone else, it's rather contradicting cuz it's actually directed to themselves :/
AND SHE HAD A CAPTIVATING STORY FOR US whereby the whole class was listening in ATTENTIVELY until the SCHOOL BELL RANG & she said she'll tell us what happen in the story next lit lesson. THE CLASS GROANED! xD!
2 PERIODS of LIVE lesson. Ok remember what I said on top (I had it highlighted!)
LIVE was suppose to be fascinating and interesting apparently it's DEAD and boring and mundane. YUP, see the contradiction?
FINALLY 2 PERIODS OF ENGLISH. THE WOMAN DIDNT COME FOR CLASS! The other people in the other class were like WALAO! I WANT TO BE IN YOUR CLASS! We did some comprehension paper about Pirates. They had more contradictory statements in there like the ones about what to do when you meet pirates. Let me tell you.

QUESTION WAS: STATE THE 3 DISAGREEMENT BETWEEN THE ADVICE GIVEN WHEN ENCOUNTERING PIRATES.
Firstly, one said you should be precaution WHEN you meet the pirates. PRECAUTION meaning keep low profile. Then the other said You should light up the light thingy so the lighthouse or patrol people will know. (HUH!)
Secondly, one said you shouldnt fight the pirates, they want to come on board you should not resist them. Then the other said you should use A HOSE spray at them to get rid of them or something! (XD!!!!!)
Thirdly, the other said No! Let the Captain decide! It's the Captain's call to what he wants the ship to do! Then later, but actually it depends on the situation or what the government do advise the people to do. (-.-''')
SEE THE INDECISIVE CONTRADICTIONS?
I was almost laughing when I was reading the comprehension!

Then later I had tuition. Woah. Chinese leh. Read Chinese newspaper again! Today Silent reading alr read the Chinese newspaper, now read again! Waaah.
After Chinese got home. Pack some stuff and get ready to go for Rehearsals!
I was doing English hw. And drinking soup. Soup was my dinner!
REHEARSALS started late! And I thought I was LATE. Ah well. I guess it's because of the whole day that I didnt feel happy anymore. But Rehearsals did cheer me up. Even when it started late. To sum up the rehearsals, I think the last part was really nice.
The part where we were allowed to sing freely. At first, I wasnt very open to it. I did it quickly and fast. Then second time I opened up a little bit more.
Then when we were at the staircase there I opened up myself completely. But I was going at a very slow pace. I made sure I was like the last person to sing Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus. And I sang really high I kept trying to stay at the high ends. And it was okay. I was trembling also. Haha. But I liked it very much. When we stood at the railings, I wanted to take a camera and snap us all. The picture would have looked absolutely lovely! That was the best part and I loved it so much. Clement was right! (:
I've got a file and a tuning fork, and yeah! I agree with Dwight, the tuning fork is FUN! :D:D:D:D!
Stayed around for a bit cuz I didnt want to go home alone. Since I knew someone lived near me I waited for her. Russell and Jeremy came along int he same bus as us.
They were the like the most amazing monkey-human people! Because honestly, I've never exactly seen a guy do Chin up and some more in the bus! Like woah. Jeremy did it then Russell. Both could and they did it daringly. I mean have you ever seen people do so and in the bus some more? (Haha sorry couldnt resist, but I'm really impressed! :D!) I had an interesting conversation in the bus. Contents, ask daddy, I sms him about it. :D

Ok then now, SATURDAY/TODAY, 12 APRIL 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!
And um also, today's the A-MAIZE-ZING RACE!
Should have gone! :(
Oh well (:

Today was siao la.
Tuition, tuition all the way.
My climax of the story not here yet but it's coming :P
Yeah I know damn long.
ANYWAY, so I had English tuition first, and guess what?
I was the earliest and it was alr 5 minutes into the lesson.
Then the others gradually came along.
Now now, this English lesson is better than the one I've been having!
Serious! This woman is the BEST English teacher ever!
Even the stuff she gives is AS GOOD AS HER!
She gave us this comprehension paper.
Not too bad it was rather interesting.
And, did I tell you my weakest part of my comprehension paper was that I cant do inferential questions?
Well if I did not, now you know! :P:P!
Well so she gave us this paper, all the questions are inferential questions. Woah.
Yes WOAH. But I just realised inferential questions were just like Literature when you read, you gotta find what is it IMPLYING. So yeah. I figured that out today.
But inferential questions is still tough, cuz the answer ain there at all. The clue is like NO CLUE! Oh well.
Then, I was late for MATH tuition after English tuition.
Now now, this teacher is also GOOOD! He teach then I understand what he was teaching! :D:D:D! We did Algebra. At least this one I was late but they were through the lesson. Tessa joined meh! :D! And together we did the sums sort of together.
Hehe Tessa so cute kept jumping questions! :)!
It was amazing when it was coming to the end of the lesson.
It was one of those days, I dont know if I ever mention it to you guys but
there was one time I was talking about a rainy day during my Chinese test.
I was sitting near to the window.
It felt like one of those days.
So nice.
It was like gonna rain, the sky's all dark and eerie.
It was dark and eerie for a rather long while before the sky decided to rain.
And when it rained, it poured torrents.
Lesson ended when the rain started -.-
So we went to the bus stop outside sch to start for bus. Ok this part is darn stupid.
I knew I can take all the bus home. But I actually forgot it was raining!
AND I WAS STANDING AT THE BUS STOP EXPERIENCING THE RAIN AND COLD AIR!
We took the 45 bus. Then i said stopped opp. Stupid me coincidentally forgot it was raining.
Then we also went back together.
And I realise everyone was suffering from after effects of NAPFA!
Daddy too, Tessa, loads of other people. I dont feel anything leh!
Anyway the bus 113 came first then Tessa ask me to go home with her so i said okay since I can take any bus home. We took bus 45 first then stop at the bus stop. And I wanted to cross the overhead bridge but then well, it was RAINING! Then while we were figuring out how, the bus 70 came should have bloody taken taht bus but we did not until I realise that I can continue taking the bus 45 because I can drop at the serangoon mrt station there, so yea. Then bus 53 came. We took it.
OKAY CLIMAX:
I told you guys Tessa was feeling unwell cuz of NAPFA right?
Before I alight at my bus stop, I told her Take Care!
AND GUESS WHAT!
WHEN I GOT DOWN, I FELL DOWN!
Because I was wearing slippers and it was so wet and slippery I fell.
THE BEST PART IS I FELL DOWN INFRONT OF A GUY!
And he was too gentlemanly to care.
And I really regret this but the lady who held my arm, I forgot to thank, but she helped me up anyway. (:

SEE THE IRONY!

Well another thing, I dont know why but I think my butt keeps getting wet. The other time I also wet my butt abit. This time I wet it entirely and totally!
Luckily not too obvious. Then I went off. I got home changed totally.
And I had tuition and due to the fun bus rides that I have had, I was really really late for tuition. Tuition I did Vectors.
V E C T O R S
Whoever made them IS ASKING FOR IT.
It wasnt so bad actually. Tuition teacher say I know how to do!
I guess I really do haha.
But dont know why there dont know.
Maybe not dont know. Cant focus and concentrate le, too much studying.
But I liked it, I wish everyday was something like that.
Then my grades will be like the seedling to the Emergent. Woah, yes.

OK REALITY CHECK:
Suppose to be doing my F&N Coursework!
It will be graded as my mid year and for O Levels as well.
Look at what I have been doing... Blogging.
I guess I dint feel like doing anything that was school related anymore.
But I'm really tight on time.
And I have to redo so many parts!
Sigh. Now I know why I was/am so gloomy. I dont like Coursework.

And daddy, where are you? You were accompanying me then you disappeared.
Woah so miserable...

T.T I wish I did well and took A Maths too. Then dont have to struggle with F&N I rather struggle with daddy and everyone else at A Math. Dropped it halfway.
Like I was doing A Maths in tuition. Surds, Log and I stopped at Log.
Afraid I couldnt keep up. I guess I shouldnt worry, but too late anyway.
Just do well for Os' and take them when i'm in JC.

In this blog entry, I can already use 2 guan you yu. To describe.

Sigh, Still have a Mount Everest pile of homework waiting for me to climb.

And like what Clement said on Friday about the devotion he shared during Rehearsals.
We always feel inadequate. Indeed. I'm feeling that right now.

Duckie, waddling away in the rain. ♥
& bravely facing her Mount Everest, love you all (:

back to one of the superest long entries xD

Okay, so... lizard in the toilet, baby lizard. Went there freaked ya.

That was just now, cuz I just bathed. My mum sprayed insectide at it luckily, I didnt die in the toilet.

WELL ANYWAY! SUNDAY! :D!
We'll all be living in denial that tmr is MONDAY.

Oh and dadddy just sms me Colbie Caillat was on tv, Rouge.
Aiya..... Oh wells, okay um today was not very nice.
Woke up at an unlikely time. By the time I reached church, late for cell.

Service was enjoying. Sermon was good. Worship was as usual, superb.
I guess I was particularly happy. But I felt alone today.
Like my usual friends were gone. Then I back to church and was alone at the third level doing hw. It was quite mundane and boring.

The exciting part was when I joined dadddy. But that was a long process of:
1. Was at church first.
2. Then take bus go home, bus took eternity to come.
3. Reach home charge phone and pack the rest of my hw. PHONE TOOK DECADES TO CHARGE FINISH.
4. Go back to church, wait for bus.
5. Then MRT to Orchard there where daddy is.

I thought daddy was with his friend. Actually not lor. He was alone.
Daddy made my day. Help me with hw again. :D
Today was gratifying because I actually at last I did HOMEWORK. Yay.

I dont know what's wrong with me. I have become so distracted by my thoughts.
I'm not happy. Sad? I'm not too sure. It's a feeling like I'm just a wandering spirit with empty emotions. Utterly cold.

When I saw that look in your eyes, it was like daggers piercing into the ice.
And when I read about what had happened, my heart contracted really hard for awhile.
How could you do this to me? Why? I was depressed by your very words.
You affect me in so many ways. I detect your emotions and get so distracted.
Why are you so cold? I want to feel that warm again. Bright and cheery warmness.

I realised that you disappear in the speed of light when attention is directed to you. I hope we'll make it up cuz I really want you. To Be With Me Forever.

Is this the feeling of brokenness? Duckie ain emo. Is she?

But I can tell you, that Duckie is sleepy haha.

Eh hello, today I had CIP.
It was fun, considering the fact that this would be the 3RD time going there AGAIN.
First time, Sec 1 go there plant tree.
Second time, Sec 2 go there do signages and scarecrows.
Third time, NOW. Go there and bring little kids along.
So tiring la. The kids so enuthu. You gotta be enthu as well to be with them.
I was. And at the same time, I felt so sad for the kids.
The kids that I am taking care of, they had to wear hearing aids.
So sad. I was reminded of little kid I know called Nigel.
Sigh but the kids were so sweet and so cute.
I loved the kids I was assigned to.
My group had 3 kids, of which, 2 girls and a boy.
ONE OF MY CLASSMATES OPENLY "KIDNAPPED" the boy n omg she imparted all the terrible "skills" to him.
It was quite obvious that everyone was tired after CIP.

And I... Had Rehearsals after that.
Rehearsals was like the usual. Except that we had to change rooms.
And today, i finally realise the true meaning of something, pretty private wont say. You wanna know you ask me. *THIS SENTENCE APPLIES ESPECIALLY TO SOME PEOPLE. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (:

Then after rehearsals, went BUGIS! Hahahha So sudden right? But yeah went Bugis and HAD DINNER. The food was great but service-wise SUCKS. And we bought heels each for like $13 in the end! WOAH. Er no. They werent fantastic.
Thanks to my aunt! ~<3! Love her so much! I could click with her but not really my mum.
And because of her I fell in love with this special YELLOW pouch bag connect with another small pouch bag for like $35. [DADDY YOU LOOKING AT THIS?] IT'S YELLOW. And we were all like window shopping. I loved the design of the bag but she was telling me yellow very hard to match and I was thinking if maybe I bought yellow shoes cuz Bugis there got loaddsa shoes man! And some of them I really love love! Those heels were like woah. They had those abnormally high 5 inch or more high heels and they were skinny. As in the heel was tall and skinny. I see already T.T
They had clothes there toooo but everything's like overpriced or something.
But I guess the prices really dropped by half price. Like these shoes were 100 bucks then dropped to about 57 bucks. Or the yellow pouch baggy was like 57 bucks then dropped to 35 bucks. Not too bad?

I wish I had cash. I'd go mad with shopping! then walked all the way to concourse and sat in my aunt's car back to my house. Woah. Today was like wooowwwww.

TOMORROW IS SUNDAY! Tomorrow sounds exciting not?

Friday was quite exciting too actually. I went for St Hilda's wind orchestra IMPRESSIONS. I love the starting songs. The rest were pretty excellent.
I dint know St Hilda was sooooooo good. I was like almost blown away.
It was one of the most interesting school concert thingies I've been to!
HONEST! The band concert was unexpected, creative and rather captivating.
It ended like really late at night haha. Come home no need to do anything can sleep.

So like practically, whole week didnt get to do much studying. Now also, hopefully tmr can do A LOT OF COMPENSATIONSSSS. Well, ok darn sleepy and tired now SO BYE!

I LUFF YOU! :D!

You're the only one for me. No doubt about it, not even a single suspicion.
My wish is to accompany your every step of the way in your life.
I want to walk beside forever and stand next to you.
You'll be more than my best friend, my good confider and my everything.
You'll just be too fantastic, too good for words. ;D

DUCK!
No, seriously ;D

Omg hey. I missed you *takes baby wipe and wipes blog and kisses and hugs it*
Life sucks.
Really. Not Primary school thing anymore.
I hate myself I really hate myself.
I feel so crushed when daddy's crushed.
Daddy did you know you're my pillar of support!
You cant collapse! I am depending on you!

This week just sucked. I didnt feel like studying and everyone's talking about midyears!

ANALYSIS:

M I D Y E A R S

DEFINITION:

Middle of the year, major exams

Sorry, too much Literature. Analysis of text and definition with significance.

AND I HATE MYSELF! I LIKE F***ING SLEEPING!
I suppose to freaking do homework I end up SLEEPING!
I hate myself! I want to kick myself!
What's wrong with me?!
Like Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday I did that!
HOW TO STUDY LIKE THAT!
I cant even sit down and do hw!
HOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!
Music doesnt help me!
And I cant sms daddy while doing hw right!

ARGH!
My body really sucks. It wont stay awake!
And worst, it's like I sleep at 9pm RIGHT AFTER I BATHE!
Then i wake up at 1.30am wondering what is going on!
I cant afford to do that this year!
And and I want to really start studying!
I want to pass MIDYEARS!
IT'S THE ONLY FREAKING THING I HAVE FOR PREPARATION BEFORE O LEVELS!
AND AND I WANT TO GET 6 POINTS FOR O LEVELS OR SOMETHING!
HELL AM I GOING POLY! I look at the Polys, they're not much to my liking.
Sorry. Last resort then I go but it's not my choice at all.
AND 6 POINTS MEANS ALL A1s!
And frankly speaking I'e got F9s and E8s and D7s in my report book!
I dont have a freaking single A1 or A2 or B3!
The highest grade I got it s B4! LIKE @#q$!$!@#@!$%%&*!!!!!!!
I'm just so angry and frustrated!
I CAN DO IT!
WHY ARENT I DOING IT!
WHY ARENT I GETTING THE GRADE I CAN ACHIEVE!
EVEN IF I CANT GET FREAKING ACES!
I CAN GET FREAKING Bs & Cs!

TSK. I'm just seriously angry!
And I hate my class and my school!
Classmates suck only think they're so hot and so cool.
And they're er just average.
When they're so childish to the CORE.
But some of them are nice, still acceptable.
MAJORITY SUCKS.
NO RESPECT.
NO CONSIDERATION.

I know I'm not any better at least I know I'm not like THEM.
I know about having civil tongue & I dont have an ATTITUDE problem.
I cant stand this stupid world anymore!

Horrible people! GROW UP! AND WHEN I SAY GROW UP I MEAN IT. MATURE DAMMIT! YOU'RE ALREADY 15!

That's it, I've vent my frustration.

You make me angry dont blame me.

OKAY. And tmr's CIP and rehearsals.
CIP - hopefully I dont smell like Pulau Ubin & the kids dont piss me off.
Me & kids dont go together.
Rehearsals - should be fine. I just hope I wont crack. And I'll stay awake.
It might cheer me up unless hopefully not in a bad mood.

Sigh. I'm not gonna post til I get to study again. And you know MidYears.
And since I'm all such a b*tch about MidYears perhaps I wont even post til the whole damn thing's over.

Tsk just angry really. I want to murder somebody.
And no daddy, it's not you.
It's not any of you, unless you know you piss me off.

I gotta tell myself I hate sleeping.
I HATE SLEEPING.

I dont know if it's me or if it's my skin.
But mosquitoes love me and they make me grow red spots EVERYWHERE.
My arms, my legs and my neck. Even now, my face has it too.

Life is so miserable. Where are you? I need you to light a smile on my face.
Please dont make it any worst than the way it is.
You're my only hope now and I will be dependant on you :)

Duckie. With love. Heehee. :D!