I can't believe it. I'm blogging. -.-

Today is the first day that I didn't go to school in my poly days.
I thought I loved school, but seeing what has happened, it makes me think that I am really better off alone.

I won't say it's emoness I just think that I'm the bad clam that can't click with everyone.

And I find myself too stubborn to succumb to others and what they want.
I often find myself asking, who are you now? What are you doing? Is this justice enough on your own conscious?

I want to be myself too much really.

So when I thought about today and how much I wanted to go to school, I realised that I want to do the same thing you want to do, Daddy.
I want to give up on reality as a whole, lost myself. Go against the Singapore Government, go against what I know. Like how we must go to school, we must study to get good grades, how I must be a good girl, what society expects from me.

And I was just thinking about all those other people in the world, who don't face being in a democractic "civilised" society, don't suffer the expectations that they have to meet that we do.

It's not just. But i guess it all boils down to it, being life itself. We're born into this world and society.

So today, when I was at home, besides feeling the stress from my nose, medicine and the notes that were facing me, I realised that I took not only a day off in school or made full use of my MC or missed a BNF test. I also realised that I took a break from life altogether.

Duckie, will keep fighting on. She needs it. She will fight her own battles, cry her won tears, experience her own willpower and strength. She needs to keep moving on..

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