"What's in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet." ~ Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet.

Lol. Heyya was just reading this article: http://www.economist.com/world/europe/displayStory.cfm?story_id=15766873&source=most_commented

on the economist dot com. It's quite funny, all the naming abbreviations. Haha. Reminds me of the Chicken&Duck debate yesterday. It really was like a Chicken and Duck. Well, the article looks fun and all right? In a third person's perspective view.

Well well well, so what to blog about? I don't really know. It's just well, I've had quite a nice time so far the week and all. Sounds pretty eventful with the things that I'd be doing. Haha. I see that I have already told you about Dorothy Cheung. :)

Hmm, I think I'll forget about the whole week once the weekend is here, tend to forget the past like how I already had an eventful week. So anyway about SMU Debate, oh the usual, dodgy adjudicating... But you know what, I think it happens the biasedness and all that. The SMU Debate tournament is not too bad, I broke through to the finals again, somehow. It was weird. On both accounts, it's like they hesitate to put me into the breaking finals.... Always like that, like some mistake.

It could be luck always people dropping out of the rounds after knowing they can break? Hahaha. But you know after some of all these competitions right? I just realised some stuff. Like how SMU, is in the middle of orchard road, there's a straight bus there from my bus and it has very nice building and classrooms and all. But it's really very confusing looking at the maps and running here and there.

NTU, it's big, it's like some big secondary school like that, with a lot of classrooms and such, it creates a kind of JC atmosphere, but the benches along the lifts there have beautiful scenaries. But it's so far away seriously. Jurong. So convenient to travel to and fro. And also, Bukit Timah NUS. NUS is far away but then er, the one in Bukit Timah, there's also a straight bus back. It passes by Leroy's school too!

I can't really imagine myself going to University. I've thought about it a lot like how I want to graduate from there. And parents telling me not to study overseas. And I do think about studying overseas sometimes, it's like what they say, when people see Oh this person from overseas wann! Then they'll want to hire you because you've got experience or something like that. So yeah.

Okay so about the SMU Debate, it was happening I must say, but congrats to one of my teammies! Beanie! :)! It's her last year at TP and it's great, she was an adj all the way til the end of the debate tournament! Well done, Beanie! At least it's not so bad, like what she said, it's a consolation prize for her. I know how she feels. If it was me. Well, right now I'm in my first year and I'm going to my next. I sort of only got 2 more years for it. Is it a big meaning if after one year, I already can break into the finals because of being an adj? What about debating?

I started off well and was improving. What about now? What's happened to me now? If there's one thing I realise and am worried about. I'm fickled minded at times. I can be serious about it too. But I think what I lack is the will and the strength to go on and carry on. It's something I really lack and need and want to have, I need to have a passion for it. I think I need people to trust in me too, to believe me and give me moral support. I feel so selfish for wanting it and not giving it to others.

But I must tell you this. In a way, I still do treat people how I want to be treated but of course they can't see it. And I don't act very well by it. Because of the simple reason how we are all so caught up in life. Activities, things we want to do. But at the end of the day, when we actually do sit down and think about it. The important people will come into my minds. The people who matter most in our lives, somehow we'll start reflecting and thinking about them and all that.

So maybe Aji was right in a way when he says we don't need or want it enough. It needs to be a need. I need it kind of thing not I want it. It's like a driving passion that must keep going and going and going. I can go, I tell you that. I can. But only if I go knowing what to expect, what to do, how to do it. The trouble is perseverance too. Maurice gave me a logic of how to carry it on.

It's not a dead passion, I won't let it be a dead passion. I'll start a new, refreshed. Reborn. It's a momentum that must go on.

Sigh, I feel so mixed up now. I still haven't told you about the tournament hahahas. But then I have to go, I don't have enough time to tell you that.
But I'll tell you one thing. I need strength, I need encouragement. So do you.
So then what are we waiting for?

Let's starting helping and encouraging people.
Don't wait for someone else to start, you start it instead.
I'm going to, are you? :)

Let's not be NATO. Let's be AA! (Affirmative Action!) :D!

Bye! Love ya! :)