Today seems a little of a breeze. I remember sitting in Sociology of Work tutorial class wondering what happens if men and women switch roles. Like men having so many wives, what happens if the women have a lot of husbands? I think I'd like that. :P

Today on my journey home, it was serenity, calmness and peace. I don't know why but the past few days, I have been feeling really lost and stress-free. It is so ironic. I have insufficient time to study yet I am at peace. My CDS teacher wants to have lessons during MidSem week. I thought about whether I would go or not go for class, whether I'd pass up my assignment and leave, I still can't make up my mind.

Today as I sat in the bus, I just thought about what I have learnt in my course especially in Sociology of Work. How true is it. We stress over paperwork. We stress over little meaningless numbers and letters to predict our future. We are all trapped and locked in this bureaucratic world behind the desk.

Motivated by economic benefits. Money, status, class, respect, materialism. I was just thinking a few days back about some guys who made really insensitive comments about my dressing. Just because I don't wear what the normal typical teenage girls wear, doesn't mean I'm weird or anything.

I have always been a warrior reigning over peer pressure. I love originality and individuality a little too much. But nevertheless, I never want to conform. Even if I do it is because of reasons like benefits or I want to achieve something. Other than that, I won't do it out of nothing.

So just thinking about my life today I know I have said all the stuff about the bureaucratic crap but then I think that after this little moment in my life,

IN THE END, I WILL STILL RUSH AND STRESS OVER MY WORKLOAD AND MIDSEMS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Okay yes, I was taking a break from the tonal ranges, they're driving me up the wall!

Oh and another thing, I was just thinking, when someone asks me a question about my love life. I get the image that I am standing near a lamppost. The light is bright, in fact it's the only light source. I see a long snaky path into the darkness, yet I am still standing next to the lamppost I look up at it. I see that all around me is a blanket of darkness. That's how my love life feels like. I am alone, standing and am lost. Occasionally, a bird flies around to where I stand, the light source of the lamppost has attracted its attention. It does hang around and stay around. But not for long. The bird does return occasionally, but flies away every now and then. Sometimes, I see a bench appearing beside the lamppost and I would sit on it and still look at the light light from the lamppost.

Only at last when a miracle has happened, I woke up from my bench and see that along the snaky path, that there is another lamppost and far in the distance, another one and another one and so on... It attempts me to leave my current lamppost. But I feel afraid to. As I walk down the snaky path, I keep looking back to where I started from, looking at that very same lamppost... And then before I knew it, my feet just kept walking and moving ahead.

The End.