I thought I might want to open up my diary to write in it but my diary only contains my most personal and precious thoughts so all those things that I can still handle I think I could put them here! :D

I started my first day of work at some restaurant in Paragon. Got cheated by my friend because I forgot what shoes to wear and my friend told me black and when I reached there I realised... I COULD WEAR ANY SHOES I WANT! SREE#ERR$@#!!!!

So how? 7 hours in the painful shoes lor. Omg, it was like AQ all over again. AQ more painful, cannot wear any shoes you like to wear. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. But then how leh? The environment is a little different because AQ has a lot of things to do and you must always be doing something and they pay you $6.

I got cheated. This place pays you $5.50 but unlike AQ, it's rather much relaxing in a way even though they also said the same thing that is... Keep doing something! Gaaah.

I feel so angry and cheated of. When I went there, I was told that I was paid $6 per hour same as AQ, but if you want to have an increase in your pay, you got to pass some test what the hell? It's so much better to work in the Café even though it's less stressful.

Haha, looks like I am born to serve people, be a waitress at different places... It's fun to serve people sometimes. SOMETIMES.

Anyway talking about that... Hmm I had quite a fun time on Sunday too! :D! Worship was awesome! I was singing on stage, I don't know why but Sunday I felt confident, not my usual glummy self whenever it came to worship rehearsals and practices, I think it had something to do with my employer and what she said about confidence. I realised something. I might have low self-esteem and it affects my confidence in the things I do.

I realise that believing really really encourages others. It's like what the Japanese animation said. I can't recall clearly but its advice was to believe and keep believing in others because when you do, it's seriously a great encouragement to them and I agree! It's such an awesome feeling and I could feel myself singing out to God and thanking Him and really believing in myself and all that, it's really awesome!

I feel like sometimes I can't be my real self around people or I can't really express the way I really feel but you know what, when I can, when I do it correctly and rightly and people like me for who I really am, I really feel joyful! :)!

Okay here's a bit of shameless happiness too I guess haha. Well, sometimes my negative expectations don't always come true, which is a good thing because I had so much fun during lunch on Sunday with the guys, even though it's kinda weird like I'm sitting in a table surrounded by all the guys and then and their weird talkings to each other, yes, :P. Sometimes you wonder what the heck they are talking about then you think oh well, forget it, haha.

But then thank God, I'm used to guys and have a lot of guy friends or are particularly close to them so the common games that guys play, L4D, Counterstrike, Plants Vs Zombies, so on and so forth, especially the first 2, I pretty much know about it all. So I guess I don't feel that left out.

Then there's the topic started out by one of the guys which is quite unexpected. Really! Like it's during lunch and we're in public and we are quite done with our food and you'll never guess the topic, it was about.... Periods. Lol, I know it's one of the guy's taboo topic which makes it seriously hilarious. I am quite open about this topic since, I've been approached by a lot of guys since I am close to guys so my guy friends would ask me but I felt a bit embarrassed to be completely open with them, on one hand, I thought it's okay to be because it's just educational on the other hand, I felt like it's personal, they don't need to know haha.

But then again because other guys have asked me before, I answered all the questions to the best of my ability. It's usually easier if they all shut up and let me answer the questions but the guys kept butting in. Lol it was kind of funny and annoying and I can't answer the questions. A bit like argh, do you want me to answer it or not?

Lol, then we went to the Youth Room, haven't been there for like ages haha. Always going off somewhere lol. Well the guys had to go, 2 went for service, one don't know where, home? And I didn't feel like going home so I hung around. One of them was still in church so I waited for that one. I thought I was going to be disappointed but I wasn't! And then I managed to have a good close talk with my one of my sister too! So cheers! :D! YAAAYY! I couldn't have quite a better week so really,

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING! CHEERS! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!!!