Okay I lied, but like you care, right?

I gotta tell you something random, I have my own personal diary and I also have an online blog. But the thing is, I hardly ever tell you stuff here because I think it's a trouble to come all the way up here to tell you how I feel. But if it's my personal diary, it's easy, all I gotta do is grab it from my desk, in fact it's right beside my lappy as I am typing this and just penned it all down.

I am really scared and nervous in the past few weeks, days go pass by me like seconds, the sun rises and then sets.

I think sometimes the days are very long and sometimes, I lose track of time.

I am fearful as to what is ahead. I don't think I have enough motivation for some things. I don't think I have enough belief for others.

I feel lonely most of the time but I am not complaining somehow I feel like I could get used to this loneliness. I feel at peace, calm at this point. But I know the calmness of the storm will pass and it is there that I need the courage, the strength of friends and people to just let me know that they are there with me, that I have them everywhere I go.

I beseech God for courage, for inspiration and also to all my friends, that we stand united and we support each other, that we will always have a tower and a pillar or strength that we find within each other and within God.

I rest my fate in your hands in fact in my own hands and all of the hands of my friends. Each one of you are all very dear to me, if only there was some way of letting all of you know.

Cheers. :)