Heyyyyo.

I'm in Jerry's house now, using this laptop while he's taking a bath.
The food in his house is really nice. I realise that I miss homemade food especially dinner. I've always had food that's bought from outside because my mum doesn't have time to cook dinner anymore.

I didn't work today and I've realised that I am actually quite busy, I can name you all the people that has asked me out and who I have gone out with. My finances are also getting a bit of a trouble because I've got to watch what I spent my cash on. And I can tell you that the continuous visits to Forever 21 are rather much increasing my chances of declaring bankruptcy.

Now I know how shopaholics feel like. I feel like buying the tops when I see them. Recently, I've seen some tops that look mature but somehow flatter my figure. I like tops that are a sort of pinkish colour in nature. They are really nice and of course things in Forever 21 are really pricey omg. People who shop there must be rich people.

Anyway, I've just banked in my money today. Hopefully it's a good thing for me. I still feel the urge to buy that top that I saw from Forever 21 and the yellow top too. Omg that's almost about $50 already and that's only 2 tops! I really wish I was rich like those people who eat and shop in Paragon. They can just throw their money around as they like.

Should I marry a rich dude? But like my dad always said to me, if you want to buy something, get the best. In everything I do, I remember what he says, he says if you want something, get the best of it. I will, and I hope I will get the best guy too. Maybe one that is rich? One that's my type? I have no idea but one thing I know for sure is that I want to be able to feel confident about myself without relying on clothes.

I know presentation skills and all teach you that your image is important for you to feel confident but what I am really aiming for is the heart and the personality. I mean figures don't last, appearances reflect age. But personality, attitudes and the heart affects the image. For example, if you are a grumpy person, it will show on your face despite you being really pretty and beautiful with makeup and all. You will still look ugly.

I remember the movie Shallow Hal, and I wonder sometimes, what will he see when he looks at me, will he see a pretty girl or an ugly one? For those who don't know this movie, it's a movie that shows a guy looking at girls for their personalities. The nicer they are, the prettier they appear to him but in his friends' eyes, his friends only see them for what they are in their outer appearance. Maybe he will see an ugly girl.

Sigh, it's almost 2am now, I got a feeling I'm falling ill, sleeping late and all. Guess I got to go to sleep. Hehehe. I am feeling tired and a bit confused and dreamy lol.

Goodnight world! :)

P.S. Jay Chou's an jing is nice k... haha :)