Oh dear, oh yes, it's 00:30am.

Beginning of Wednesday. You know I wonder sometimes, ever had phobias? You know, phobias of any sorts?

I think I might begin to have one. With just 2 words. 2 words that everyday, everywhere you go especially in your daily lives, you might meet just like that, why? Because you have to and you got to.

These words are called "Group Project", it's really amazing seriously. Because these 2 words have a lot behind them. Why? My new found phobia is this: In Group Projects, you have to choose who you want to work with so with that, that's basically the problem.

Being in Debates, I feel slightly gratified to be a little insane and say I LOVE POLITICS AND THAT'S WHY I JOINED THE DEBATE CLUB! Got to make that into a badge and wear it around, it'll be the love of the century.

So anyway, guess what my friends say is true. It's political all the time. Especially with the ladies. Why? Because the ladies always try to outshine each other, it's not fake, it's true dude. And then the ladies also suffer from something I really hate but I think I suffer from that too sometimes. A little nasty irritating, I want to kick it in the butt problem called Insecurity.

I don't get it sometimes, I really don't get it. They will do anything for it. Turn cold, evil and heartless and they can't see themselves be that because they are blinded by it. I don't wonder, I know I can be like that sometimes, so I have to handle myself well, but I really can't tolerate it sometimes.

Is this the measure of hardship? Is this the measure or some sort of personality test? I really try my best to think and wonder really hard about it. Sometimes I think the fault is on the government and the surrounding and place where we grew up.

Being in a competitive grounds, of course, we would develop insane symptoms or just very slight ones. You know, how it is like, what if she gets better than me, what if this and that, I wanna do the best, I wanna be the best blahblahblah so competitive, I think that's where the insecurity nature came about, it's rather like survival of the fittest or what we call in Chinese, Bu shi ni si; jiu shi wo wang.

I feel so sad sometimes, this is the depth of how humane we are. Even at such height of education, we'd think we'd turn to become more civilised but we're not.

Sometimes, simplicity plays a role in these little events.

But maybe that's why I want to be who I want to be. My birthday date says I'm an engineer or I am born to be one. I was just thinking, I don't really like Science and Math a lot, but I do like to think like what God told me, I guess and I suppose that my ambition and what I want to be and what I want to do, is really amazing and a miracle.

To work out politics huh? So dramatic sometimes, seriously, you have all the scandals like what you see on TV! Imagine seeing them in real life! Wow! Such ignorance! Such award winning actions and all that can score you so much points in the Hollywood world, what a shame!

But it's true isn't it? All the world's a stage, and the men and women are merely actors and actresses... Too good to be true no? Oh crap, I need to sleep and I'm perspiring... Not good at all. Good luck you people out there, Group Projects and human relations are always occurring. All the best, politics for the win. Cheers.