I see the past flash before me. I don't know what I ought to do.

But I'm thankful that I'm not like that. I really am.

At least I know I have a heart, a soul, just a thing in me sane and human enough to care, I feel weird. I feel evil and wicked yet at the same time, I feel pity and I feel a sense of jealous and hatred. How can one action produce so much reaction in me?

I don't understand but I do know why.

I was beginning to lose myself but now, I'm going to get it back.

Joscelyn, you are going to get yourself back. Cheers.