Hey guys! EXAMS ARE FINNALLYYY OVEERR!!!! YES YES YES! :D!

Anyway everyone's being asking me what I WANT for my birthday.... Hmmm and I was thinking about what I WANT but I think I should focus more on WHAT I NEED. So here's the differentiation, have fun :)

* is for the more important ones that I need urgently.

I WANT:
Boots
Caps, hats
Nail Polish
Clothes, fashion such
Heels
Dress

WHAT I NEED:
**New phone
***New watch with Timer and all, digital watch...
New MP3 player? Hopefully it holds 200 songs?
****I know this one CONFIRM NEED: CASIO calculator! Yes I lost my extra, only Casio I don't know how to use SHARP and I don't like SHARP.

Oh yeah and.... GUYS!
Please! NO MORE SOFT TOYS! xD! Too many already!

Other stuff I guess could be accessories:
*HAIR accessories, like black hairclips, hairbands. Preferably black please.
*Make up? Lipstick, eyeshadow, blusher dot dot dot
Sunglasses :D

Necklace
Bracelet

*****Oh yeah, I need more COLOUR markers and pens for my notes. Thanks. :D!

OH NO YOUR EYES ARE NOT FOOLING YOU!
IT'S ALMOST 2AM!

Okay so the Duck can't go to sleep. Don't worry, she downed noodles and milk, hope it's working soon. PRAY! :P! But...
Do you think it was because of the music or the stressing about the studying?

I mean think about it. She was stressed about how much she didn't do and how much she needed to do so she went to listen to music and BOOMZ! She was hung up on the music, and grooved to it, Oh no, she didn't forget her notes. How could she, they were right infront of her. Scandalous.

Well and tomorrow there is lecture yay. I can't believe I'm not tired, I had such a reckless day today, actually went out to play even though exams were coming soon, it's like I was looking at the schedule then I said SCREW YOU! And I went out to play hahaha.

Not really la, I ended up bringing my notes and I studied the last chapter for BNF. Not bad eh hahaha. But not completely. Couldn't concentrate.

But today's all in all, a happy day even now down to the last minute. I bathed 3 times in a day, twice washing my hair, once not because I just felt sticky then went to bathe :P.

Sigh, if I don't think about it, I'm a happy duck. If I don't think about my heart's desire or worries, I really am a happy girl.

Yet I must tell you, I'm in love with the songs that I was listening to when I was studying.
Daddy's music taste has improved or perhaps it's almost at my level now. We love the same songs! :D!
They are Colbie Calliat - Falling for you and Jack Johnson - Better Together! :)! So nice and always, standard of Leroy, John Mayer. Or is it Mayor haha. John Mayor I guess. :P.

The Colbie Calliat song makes me think about my heart's desire but the the song is such a happy song, I got influenced by it. Hahaha. But then well, I don't know. How do you describe it. It's like this. Very mixed up feeling. You don't see yourself with that person in the future like you don't see yourself getting married to the person but then well, you like that person's company. You long to spend time with the person because it's fun to spend time with them. You miss them when they are not around. You want to talk to them and all. Well, it's a normal kind of friendship feeling? No? Yeah, weird right?

Sigh, thinking about it, makes my mind mad. :/ (impromptu alliteration)

But basically, that's the wrap up, it's supposedly STUDY WEEK on my calender but do enjoy your 4th or 5th day of the Lunar New Year, hope you feel richer than you did 4 or 5 days ago. Hahaha! :)

DUCK OUT! :)

Hey guys. I think I am reflecting too much today. It's affecting me a lot.

Like I've lost the usual crazy ra-ra me that will chiong to do so well for the psychology online quiz that is due today. I stopped doing it and got satisfied with the results that I have gotten even though they weren't really good o.o

My exams are coming and I am not studying. Yeah something wrong with me.

I watched a show called Life Transformers 2 on channel 8 today. And I guess what I saw shocked me and my brain. I've never felt so happy and appreciative in my entire life. Really.

And then my mum she told me something about the facts of life again. Which really made me ponder... Is it true?

She said this.... Chinese men, they are always the ones you know, too much pride. Imagine a guy coming from an office job and he got retrenched or what. He won't take up jobs like cleaning, mopping or stuff, he won't. Even when the family in trouble or what, pride still very important. It's only always all the women, they dare to take up jobs, do the household chores, take care of children, it's always the women.

Realise that the men's job is actually quite simple? Go to work, work, eat, sleep, come back home from work, put the legs on the table, relax and watch tv.

What about the wife? She needs to work then what, come back home earlier to cook dinner and prepare dinner, then the fetching of kids either dad or mum does it, usually dad. Then when they all come home, mum serves the food, mum washes the dishes, what does dad do? Let me quote "put legs on the table, relax and watch tv." Then take care of the kids, coach homework, talk to the kids, the mum's better at it than the dad, no? Dad tries, attempts to or something then watch tv dont care.

Do you agree? Won't the mum be tired? And then the thing they always say is the dad would want to do what couples do on the bed and all. Poor mum, poor women.

But is it true, that Chinese men have too much pride? It's always the women, so emotionally strong, keeping the family together. Women with so much burden? I wonder, I really do.

I guess for me, I've thought about it. If I ever get married, I would make sure my husband won't be like that. For once, we would both work, share the household chores, I don't mind coming back home to cook dinner for my family but I don't know if I will have the energy. I feel happy as a mother to cook for the ones I love. As for the kids, I think it would be tedious but I guess I would want to be the closest friend ever to my kids, I want them to know that I am a mother which will want to help them as much as possible that they can share anything with me. I am like someone they look up to for help and all, a mum, best friend, like an older adult friend, that sort of role. :)

But coming back to the question, guys and girls, do you agree? Maybe the guys would be wanting to disagree almost immediately or plunge into defensive mode but guys, think about it slowly and carefully. Is it true? Then do you feel that it's right? And this whole thing about equality and all that....

I was thinking, it might not only apply to Chinese men, it could apply to all men in general. But my mum made it sound like it is Chinese men in particular. :/

I should stop thinking I guess and start studying. But leave your comments on my tagboard, it would be nice if it could be stuff like.....

Chinese male #1 or Chinese female #1 or something to identify who you are at least in terms of gender, not too much on race hahaha but just a heads up? Thanks. :)

YO GUYS! WHATZZ UP!!! :D!

Hey so much happened this week I think I must say.

I fell down on Wednesday, like early in the day, don't ask how it happened, people said it was the shoe. And plus, I wasn't looking at where I was walking, it was down the stairs, from Eng sch to the audi there then I fell down. :/

It was weird, I was looking up at the sky, thinking about nothing much.. And I fell, and when I fell it was like as though I was daydreaming then I fell back on the Earth with a thud. Not a nice one to add.

Laughed for a bit at my stupidity, my friends probably thought I was insane. But ever had those moments in which you'd laugh when you fell? That was how I felt.

Then I massaged my feet make sure it was fine then oh crap. I sprained one of them, Bother. I always hurt my leg anyway. I think I have loose ankle joints too. :/ Kept on falling down.

Looks like I can't sit cross-legged anymore, if I do, I'd be like oh shit, it hurts... :/

That's #1.

Feel so blur this week, always find myself losing focus, dropping out of focus. Even with my friends, I feel so alone once again. I sort of got used to this alone thing. I feel like I like it very much, like I can just sit at one place, (hopefully it's quiet) then stare at nature and enjoy the scenery kind of thing.

I love TP. We have a reservoir! It's so pretty! :D! I like to go there and enjoy the wind. Sit on the grass usually I'm with my close friends and we'd talk or I'd do most of the talking :P.

Okay, now this one is just random.

Looks like we plunged into a relationship too fast.
You don't seem to love me, but I think I love you, it's just one big haze now.

I miss you, your loving you, your care and concern, your attempted affectionate love,
Sometimes I feel so pathetic, that all I want is love but I can't get any.

And then I'd seek it somehow, in all the wrong ways, and end up miserable.
I feel like I am always deprived. I can't look for it because I don't want to get hurt, but I long for it because it makes my life seem important.

So is my life important? I like to feel included, needed and important. Doesn't everyone?

I guess what I am trying to say and be is. I want someone to need me. To want me, to love me and I'd give my best to love the other person back with my whole heart. :)

Haha, I always joked that if Facebook could allow us to type anything in our status bar, I'd put:

"LEAVE ME ALONE. PLEASE? "

Hahahaha, not too sure about what I feel now.

Gosh, I should start to get on with my sch load!
PSY EXAM, LAW PROJ, ASR PRESENTATION, Psy presentation I'm done. Ahhhh then all the studying I suppose.

I love you my friends out there, I treasure each and every one of you.
I hope you'd treasure me too. :)

LOVE, Duckie. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Lol hey! Okay you know what, I am going to try to blog every now and then, whenever I can! :)

SO DON'T COMPLAIN! :D!

Okay so here's the recent headlines in my life:

1. There are people adding me on hotmail and I don't know who they are but they think I'm male and they want to chat with me and webcam with me which is something I sooo totally hate. It's not the first time neither is it the second nor third or fourth.
Can't keep on deleting them, and they refuse to tell me where they get my email from.
Could be some stupid prank or whatever but it is seriously annoying me. If you can help, please help and I will appreciate your help A LOT! Thanks. :)

2. They should ban projects. Seriously.

3. Exams should be MCQ not structured or fill in the blanks. Because you always have a choice in life that is restricted and you are never free or allowed to do whatever you want to do. And putting structured and blanks are stupid because they are cheating you by telling you that you can write whatever you want to write but seriously, they are still restricting you because they will be able to mark you correct or wrong so honestly, no point man. There's no correct or wrong in life, it's all just based on perspective and perceptions.

4. This year sucks. Got exams during birthday. Valentines Day clash with Chinese New Year. Last year Christmas still doing projects and work. This year Chinese New Year is study week so is V.Day, how to go dating if I want to go?

5. Love life: Sucks to the maximum. I feel like I'm changing and losing myself again. I want to regain the same good girl stuff and all. But I find it hard. And I guess I should try to expand my social circle but at the same time, I don't want to lose my individualistic self. I like and treasure that part of me that people find "abnormal", "weird" or "strange". To me, it's unique me! You'll never find one like that except me! :D!

6. Talk about sucking energy or energy suckers. I shall try to defeat learned helplessness! I got to! I have to be my hyper happy positive self and maintain it! I don't care if I irritate the heck out of Joel hahaha. But seriously, it's gonna help me in the long run, you know? :)

7. And they always say it's only always merely a dream if you don't try to pursue it. True? :)

Eight. Elated Eighteenth.... Not so Elated anymore. But gotta think positively! :D! YES YES YES!

9. My Psychology lecturer is the very first person whom I know when I ask, what will be the dressing for our presentations tomorrow?

Anything. :O.

Then my friend said, anything!? Then tomorrow I wear coconut and leaves?! Then he turned around and said.. Uh uh uh who said that? Who? Okay tomorrow wear arh... Don't wear minus marks.

xD!

10. I am running out of things to say. This week and next week got presentations. This week more relaxed. Next week is hectic+ psychology paper! OMG! BOOM!

11. Bye, love ya thanks for reading. :) And the passerby, please let me know who you are. Got a feeling you are from my Hotmail list. Someone. ;)