If you are here. Like I am now. Thank you for coming here.

If you are here, like I am now and you see this blogskin with the photobucket saying that the photo has expired. You know how old this blog is.

If you are here like I am right now. You will notice that "life will be better; cheers" and 'I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone' has been changed. Why? Because you were here.

THANK YOU! for being here. :)

Now I know why I don't blog so much anymore. Never was a great fan of HTML and I doubt I'll ever be.

So the question in your head now is Why am I suddenly here? Why have I returned after so long? Gave my blog a new skin, new face, new everything? I'll tell you why because for once, I don't have to say "life will be better; cheers" because my life is better and yes, cheers to that. (No Martini or alcoholic drinks? Too early? OJ or water or any beverage will do just fine :) )

I just feel that I should blog about this. Try to understand what I am thinking or feeling, for you and for me really. I should be really happy right now at this moment in my life. Why? Let's just say I'm going to go for my dream job and my love life is in that sense fulfilled. :)

Who knew I could snag 2 things at once? I thank God for all these really. As much as possible, I am a person who tries to be myself a lot. I find it gratifying to be able to show people who I really am sincerely and really meaning it.

I picked this skin because I think it best reflects how I feel right now. I am really happy with him. I♥the colour YELLOW! as you can see from the side :)

However, while I am happily living in this moment of bliss happiness. My scars do not let me rest in peace. It is still very daunting and very tiring to be haunted by the past. They will always remind you or life too that things that are happy aren't constant. Because if they are, that's just not life's style.

In this moment though, I would like to express my gratitude for the kindness God has bestowed upon me. I will treasure this moment in time when I, if I can say almost had it all. It's just 2 things but 2 BIG things. I fear for the future as I always will. I fear that they will tear me in different directions, making me choose one over the other. By then, who will I choose? :/

That, is for you to find out and for me to know, if I actually do know what the answer is at this point in time but I worry and think too much. So right now, I'm just going to be happy and satisfied with life while it last and I still can do that! :)

See you around again! Thank you for checking back every now and then! :)