EVENING!

CSI starts in like 5 minutes!!!!

Listening to Michelle Branch ft Sheryl Crow's Love Me Like That!

Had a really good time with Jerry today. I spilled everything that I was thinking of.... All my thoughts about those dark things. And I'm so happy someone agrees with me on things and you know it's soooo sooooo soooooo good to be able to be honest about certain things and have someone who you can really trust and confide in. I need more people like that in my life.

I think all my old friends are most suitable for that. My old friends from my Alma mater and also from the old church. It's because we have already built a bond with each other. The base is there already, now we're just adding the chocolate and the cream and just the best and most awesome part of the cakes and desserts.

How I miss having such HTHT conversations! They were sooooooo good! Even tho I was the one talking most of the time but they're my old friends so they know me and my monologues! Haha but Nelnel must have really received the worst end of it. Sometimes, I feel that a guy is a better listener than a girl but I can't have too much a preference on this... Everyone has their own strengths....

Which leads me to wonder... Am I a good listener like them? If I had someone like me who talks a lot, will I be able to be like them, shut up and listen? I hope I will be. Because sometimes, I like to listen too instead of always talking. I think I have changed tho. I became a person who likes to listen more now than to talk now. Because everytime when I talk, I always feel so vulnerable. Maybe the reason why I don't have such honest conversations or haven't had one in the longest time is because I feel like I just cannot let my defences or my guard down with a certain person around.

Remember people, trust is EARNED, you do not just get it like that in an instant. There's just no such thing....

HEHEHHEHEHEHE CSI START LIAO BYE!