HELLO EVERYBODAY~~!!!

I had one of the best working days of my life! Yipee!!! :D!

She was actually really nice and decent to me today instead of all the scoldings! Got tips from a gentleman too but went back to him and he was like "oh, keep the change" and they called me blond. Yes I am blond. Very blond.

The lady boss' husband likes to make fun of us the little kids. He was like saying that both of us we wouldn't lie because we do not know how to lie. Too blur to lie already right? And he makes fun of us in a teasing, disturbing kind of way, same as when I first started working as a waitress.

I like today very much! :)! I actually received a very nice comment from her. She said no matter how much I eat, I won't get fat! Omg! But I have a tummeh! And she was still feeding me omai! She fed me like chocolates, Tako Yaki errrrr I had Chicken Rice, that omelette thing! OMG SO MANY THINGS! Everytime I go there got like ten thousand things to eat like that. I am so wellfed there! But they make me work a lot too. So not too bad! :)!

I won't say it but I miss you
I don't know if you miss me or you don't but I hate this.
I hate feeling insecure about this, I hate feeling insecure in totality.
Can trust be extinct in such a thing?
It doesn't feel like what it ought to be
But if you ask me, I think it's a fling
It's been a week and yet it doesn't seem to enlighten me
Is this really going on and happening or is it all in my head?
Should I poke, pinch and violently hit myself?
Will it change anything else?
Please help me
Give me security
Because if you don't...
I am afraid that I might just die in my thoughts and stab myself
I won't tell you this but it's already killing me inside
And I want to be free. I want. Liberation. Please.
This is why... I think you don't need my explanation.
Afterall, we already know this..
...