Dear Blog,

It's me again of course, who else would it be? Seems like my biological clock has set itself on this timing and is going to stay on this timing for quite a while..

I have been pretty distracted lately. First it was by work, tons and tons of work like a tsunami swallowing me down. You should see my table now. A piece of artwork all on its own. Hairspray, tissuebox, waterbottle, ANZ paper, SASA plastic bag, cotton wool, LANCOME Paris bag, nail polish remover, the list could go on for 3 days. &pathetically sad to say, I am still blowing my nose away until kingdom comes. Yep. So much for I'm going to see the doctor on Friday eh? Or "I'm gonna get better" eh? I really really hope so.

But you know this thing?



It saves lives or at least my life. It's really powerful. I took like once and then I was feeling way tons better like the reaction was just "Whoa!"

Anyway I've been really dreamy and it feels like most of the time I live in my own world. Once upon a time, someone I knew told me it was amazing how I could see the complexity of the world and that particular person was sad that, this complexity could only be seen by me, they wanted to see it too.

&the more I think about this, the more I realised maybe I'm not as approachable as I thought I was before. Or people change over time. I've changed to someone quiet but I can be noisy when in an environment that I feel totally comfortable and myself in. But I regret to inform you that nowadays in environments where I am usually loud and noisy, I am in fact, stoning, I'm quiet. I do not speak anymore.

On a lighter note though, I am somehow close to my sisters now, which is really interesting. We were young and not close at all but now we are and it is like having unofficial girlfriends when they are around. Of course, I still don't quite behave like myself to be honest. :/

I have become practical like my mother. The epitome of practicality. It's a bad sign if you ask me. I want to be me again but then I realise of course that I am of the extreme poles. Really practical on one hand and I lose all my emotional capabilities and when I am totally and completely emotional, I lose all my practical capabilities. Which is probably why I don't like being in love because it's hard to flip the switch. Either that or if I don't be in love, I'll be like my mother which I must tell you, isn't too much of a good news to me.

Would love to chat more but I'm afraid I need to go now. ^^

Loads of love from the Duck.

I'm as lost and distracted as my post..