Be prepared for a terrible monologue by me. I have warned you...

Why does everyone think that everything is self-given to them!? If everything is given to you naturally then HOW IS THAT LIFE?!

Life sucks because life is always the same, you work hard for what you want and eventually you get it or you don't. Usually you don't get what you want out of life.

Here's the trouble or reason why: We like things to be organise, neat and in order. We love to see it for the way that it is. So, we always make plans. We are so often stringent and let's say "stick to the plan" sort of person so we are stiff and strict. But I know for me, I am the adaptability kind of person, usually I just keep going with the flow, I just take what I can get and be satisfied and happy with it. BUT WHAT I CANNOT TOLERATE IS! When you do something nice for someone THEY DON'T FREAKING APPRECIATE IT! Worst is sometimes you wonder if they DESERVE IT! Like seriously... Make me regret for being nice to you, that's all!

&I can't believe I'm going to say this... I feel so softhearted saying this... As much as I am angry at you, I can't help but pity you and pity my mum the most really. She really suffer a lot. I think she will be first. Usually that's the case. But both of them got very strong and tough personalities on their own so I guess they'll both have very long lives. (stats show that nowadays older people are really living much longer than the previous older people... yes) So anyway the reason why I pity you is because maybe secretly inside you. You fear losing your power. &your power is SO IMPORTANT TO YOU! I learnt this in school: Older people like the respect that they get at work for being so long in the company and all the knowledge they accumulated and stuff but honestly, both of you... I tend to take a HUGE pinch of salt when CONSIDERING whether to take your advice! Honestly, everyone likes to be viewed positively and admired by all! BUT YOU HAVE TO EARN IT!

If there's one thing I hate and despise society for, it's the stupid Patriarchy society view. Part of me understands that we should give the guys this because the Bible said so, God made us this way BUT SERIOUSLY. They should at least behave like they earn this title right?! I'm sorry but I feel like I'm giving this title to a kid! And hello, I AM A KID?! NO!? It's just what I feel and kids don't usually make you have high expectations of them because you already know what they are like! In front of your eyes! But this one... IS A Big kid if you ask me!

&oh gawd, to men, MEN! Pride, ego, ability, face is SO IMPORTANT! For women, it is a little the same too but COME ON PEOPLE! BE MATURE ABOUT IT! Mau explained it to me before... For women it is more on the emotional side, for men it is more technical. All about ability. Women not really, it's a bit of an insecurity issue but both are still roughly about the same.... Men are insecure about their ability, women are mostly insecure about everything but the way they handle it both are very interesting. Women always try to outshine each other, that's why Women are Political and often Historical. And as the saying goes "Hell Hath No Fury Like A Women's Scorn" yes.

Men, on the other hand, are just sometimes childish and abusive. Mostly abusive in stupid ways -.- somehow they are more technical yet they are also more stupid. Sometimes only, which is probably why they are creatively interesting like that.

Okay I can see that I have written out of point and reason being is I am not angry anymore. Was just slightly irritated and right now I am irritated too because I'm perspiring and I don't like perspiring especially after I've just bathed. Not nice.. AH. I feel like I'm turning into a bitch. But I've let you see a piece of my mind. &that's just a piece of it.

Merci. Merci beaucoup mon ami. Désolé. Je ne sais pas pourquoi... je ne peux pas sembler m'exprimer clairement quelquefois. :/

de toute façon, Je t'aime (:

Au revoir!